Der lauteste Krieg ist der, den keiner sieht — der in einem selbst. Über das Wegstoßen und Zurücksehnen, das Sabotieren dessen, was man am meisten braucht.
(Wait… don't go…)
(Stay… no, leave…)
Tears hit my skin but I wipe them away
Practice a smile like I'm good, like I'm okay
Turn my back hoping you'll call my name
But I'm the one who pushed you away
I say I'm fine, I don't need no one
Then I hate the silence when you're gone
Every word like a loaded gun
I shoot first, then I come undone
I pull you close just to let you fall
I build it up just to lose it all
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
I stood so high like I had control
Looking down like I'm untouchable
But the fall hits harder when you're alone
And I taste every word I said like stone
Everything that I swore I'd never be
Looking back, it's staring back at me
I pushed you off, but I jumped the same
Now I'm stuck with the blame and the empty space
I hear your voice in the quiet now
But I'm the reason you're not around
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
I blocked your number but I know it by heart
Every digit like a place I restart
I walk these streets hoping I won't see you
And every shadow looks like you do
I tell myself it was never real
But I still chase the way you feel
If I see you, I'll break again
Run straight back to where we end
Wait— stay— no— go—
I don't even know anymore
Close— far— yes— no—
I'm the one I can't ignore
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
(Wait baby… don't go…)
(I don't know… I don't know…)